Do you ever struggle with a spirit of "blah?" That is where I am right now. It's a mix of the overcast drizzle and my incredible impatience to move into my new home among other things, but I just feel blah. I shouldn't! I am exceedingly blessed, but I just want to lay in bed all day a read a book or watch tv. It's kind of like Eeyore, walking around with a perpetual storm cloud over his head. Webster defines it as “a feeling of dullness, boredom, lethargy, likened to a winter’s day.”
I feel like I shouldn't bed this way, I have no right to, snap out of it. But, you know what, God understands. The Bible tells us that Jesus can sympathize with our weakness, that he was tempted in every way, but was without sin. (Heb 4:15) I bet he woke up with the case of the blahs now and then. The question is what am I going to do with it? Is it a sin to snuggle in bed on a rainy day? Lord, I do hope not! I just can't allow my blahs to deepen or darken into depression. I can't allow myself to let my blahs drag others down. So, I could over analyze and worry and shame myself, or, I can just allow God to love on me and accept me. I can receive the peace and comfort that he freely offers.
I think I will focus on these things:
The joy of the Lord will be my strength!
Today is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.
You see, joy isn't based on circumstances or the weather. It is from within, from a personal relationship and reliance on God. So, I may have the blahs, but I also have joy.
“He uncovers mysteries hidden in darkness; he brings light to the deepest gloom. (Job 12:22 NLT